I'm the one who remembers everything.

Nope. Just no. Back on permanent hiatus.

I will not be replying to messages nor will I ever log on this blog, ever again. Thank you so much to all those of you who have followed me throughout my journey and even to those of you who left. I want to thank those on AskSPN that have interacted with me. Whether that’s through asking me things through your personal, supporting me OOC-ly on AIM or sending meaningful and fun messages IC-ly, here.

AskSPN was, for me, a great way to start roleplaying. I acted accordingly to all the rules and I recognised that the rules were needed to keep order and keep respect as a major pillar in our online society.

Continue reading this only if you’re really curious. If you honestly don’t want to know, then don’t bother reading under this cut.

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Anonymous Asks:

Can I just say, (to the OOC) that your portrayal of Sam is PERFECT. Everything is down to a T. However, there is another RP Sam, but that person does an amazing job to. Both of you do. You guys are so good at doing Sam (omg, no pun intended...lol) I can't decide which Sam to go along with. Like, figure out which would be more of a Sam answer. But I can't decide because you guys are so both good at writing him. So kuddos for the both of you! I love you both! :DDD

stillhumansam Said:

[[Thank you so much, anon. This means a lot. <33]]

Anonymous Asks:

Were you ever in any honor or AP classes? Or did you just do normal classes and you just got better grades than everyone else? I would assume you had at least 2 honor classes you went to. Maybe one AP.

stillhumansam Said:

I wanted to, trust me. Lit and History sounded great. But I never stayed at any place long enough to get offered. Plus, the classes cost like $200 each. Where were we ever gonna get that kinda money?

Anonymous Asks:

Today was a memorial service for some pastor at this church my mom dragged me to. It was actually pretty sad. I teared up towards the part where his daughter started talking about him and how wonderful he was. He seemed like such a great man. Great man, husband, and father. All around pretty damn awesome. It makes you disgusted to think these horrible, evil, wretched ass motherfucking people get to keep their fathers, and here these amazing people are, they don't. :/

stillhumansam Said:

Sometimes, it’s ‘cause you’re strong enough to be without one.

Anonymous Asks:

Mind me for asking, but did you and Jess ever..you know? Do it? How far did you guys get?

stillhumansam Said:

That’s private and not really something I want to talk about, anon.

Anonymous Asks:

Were you ever bullied Sam?

stillhumansam Said:

Yeah, sometimes. I was a little awkward back then. But I could still hold my own.

And it’s not like Dean would let anyone harm a head on his baby brother. Only he gets to do that.

ask—sam ——> stillhumansam

Okay, so I check on here for a few minutes and guess what I find? I find five new messages from genuinely curious people and that’s when I remember.

I made this blog for my followers ~~andDean~~ not to interact with AskSPN. So that’s what I’ll do. I’ll answer questions from any blogs that are not ask-blogs or roleplay blogs. I’ll answer questions from your personal. I have an obligation to my followers, one that I’ll fulfill with pride, but my time with Ask is over, as I’ve specified before.

I will not roleplay. I won’t interact with other characters. I will not accept magic!anons. I will not open ask-soulless-sam back up, either. Just this one.

This is solely an ask-blog.

I’ve also been a complete whore and kept ask—sam but shh, we’re not talking about that.

“And then, Atlas shrugged.” — the final curtain act.

ask—sam and ask-soulless-sam are both on official permanent hiatus.

I will not be replying to messages, continuing roleplays or reblogging anything. Thank you for following me, those who have followed from the beginning to the end and even to those who have just joined. Your messages make my day.

I’ve made more friends on here than I thought possible and I’ve realised a few things, too.

ASKSPN had potential and I’m glad that I was part of it. Now, though, I’m moving on. With the collapse of the Masterlist and the official disconnect, I think it’s best if I leave, as well.

The blogs won’t be deleted because I know others have copies of roleplays on them. Also, I’m just an URL whore. I feel like I’ve made ask—sam and ask-soulless-sam my own.

Thank you for the love and support that you’ve all given me, both IC and OOC. Thank you all so much for this.

Those of you who want to find me, know where to find me already. This is Sam Winchester — Mouse — signing out for the last time.

January 3, 1983

notestosamanddean:

Dear Sam,

Daddy and I told Dean about you today. We couldn’t wait any longer now that I’m really starting to show, so I baked him his favorite pie and we sat him down at the kitchen table to tell him that in a few months, he was going to have a baby brother.

He loves you already, baby. We were a little worried about how he was going to take it, but he climbed down and gave me a hug and told me it was for his baby brother.

Tonight, we cuddled on the couch for a bit and talked. He’s already making plans to give you Mr. Bear, so you’re all set on the stuffed animal front and you aren’t even here yet. He says you’re going to like Mr. Bear and that he’ll help the angels keep you safe while you sleep.

You know Sam, I never had any siblings. It was always just me and I hated how lonely it was. I always promised that I’d have two kids, so that they’ll never be alone and I don’t think you ever will be.

Not as long as you have Dean.

You’re a lucky little boy, Sammy Bear. Not only do you have mommy and daddy who love you very much, but you’re also going to have the best big brother (and Mr. Bear) that anyone could ever ask for, I just know it. You are so loved, little boy and you aren’t even here yet.

I love you,

Mommy